lala! um yingen.. the first post was random lah.. testing only! =p
alright everyone who reads this please relink me ya?

last few days have been happening.. as in alot of things happening.. brain clog.. i suspect my post is gna be a pretty long one so...

alright.. thankies first. thank you alene for being there the last week to cheer me on. for reminding me that Daddy's always there for me! if you ever get to read this.. thank you so much! and dont worry ya? Daddy's always there for you too! =) thank you laoda for crapping with me the last few days! really appreciated that. thank you jiaxin for just chatting with me. i realise i have short term memory. thank you everyone who has just seen me through this week. especially you Daddy.

now for wishes. i shall try to improve my memory! to: yingen carrie jackie pearl shihui jiaxin dj yeokseng ruixiang yinzuo andy elisha alwyn amandaho tszman junyi yunzhi rachel alene tiffanymei... all the bestest for your coming o levels! just a few more weeks ya.. it'll be over! so hang in there! you all can make it de! =) sorry if i forgot to wish anyone else!

since next week choir's starting.. i shall rant a lil. i miss all my seniors. especially becky. if you're reading this.. come back visit soon darling! i miss you! oh how i miss those times when we were in sec one and two.. listening to mr george tan's crappy jokes and his unique laughter.. i miss ms ow and her warm encouragements.. i miss.. ms lim. i wouldn't mind if all this repeated itself again. i wouldn't mind enduring ms lim's shouting and scolding, saying how we sound like sai. remember the times we sat in that church in different sections discussing how to improve each other? remember the times we sang freely? remember the jokes cracked during sectionals and how we were all so nervous yet refused to hug each other till the results were out? remember the tiring but wonderful times during practices with anderson and fairfield? how we sang those songs over and over and over again?

i grew to love singing. whether in choir, jamming or in church. i love the melodious harmony that the music brings. but.. i hate to attend practices now. the feelings of enjoyment in my songs are not there anymore. the politics, schemming, backstabing, lying, sulking, quarreling make it all so ugly. it's disgusting how everything functions now. simply horrifying. why bring reality in so quickly and force us to accept how the real world outside is like? why not let us enjoy our teenage years with wonderful memories to reminscise? why bring in all the quarrel and strife? why did human nature turn out to be so ugly?

results. i may not have the chance to ever sing in choir again. reality reality. why is it always so cruel?

this long and taxing week is finally over. thank God. im so looking forward to tml. although it's gna be a long day. im spending half of it with a bunch of glorious people. =)

lastly. to my darling: you still remember our little outing this sunday afternoon? if you're reading this.. please confirm with me? im keeping my sunday free for this.. =)

may monday never come...